Thoughts

J,
I'm just staring at these blank pages,
tears roll down my cheeks, tears for all the fears.
My mind filled with a lot of thoughts,
good ones but also confusing ones.
Which one will be the captain of our boat?
Our (love)boat, is on its way to paradise,
when will we arrive?
what will we find?
We fight through storms and heavy waves,
will our love maintain?
or vanish in vain?
I'm too fucking scared, scared of the unknown,
the things that might come.
All these insecurities are killing me,
and maybe someday my heart will be
shattered into thousand pieces.
Still, you'll be the one who will try to fix me,
but maybe I'll be broken beyond repair.
After all that, I think I still need you,
by my side, to hold me when I cry.
Cause we're still on the same boat,
our boat. And no one is leaving yet.
At least, I am not.